Happy Momment Happened Just Like a Dream

It has been quite some time since i last blog, it had been a bz 2009 for me, and i am great that company is doing great...Everything seem to be on the track and i thought the same goes for my relationship.....It was not easy to find an ideal guy of my dream after so long that i decide to start off with another new relationship whom i meet at an interview session..We shared the same interests and we hv the same values of family. In the beginning, everything was sweet and good..When we 1st started off, we went through some financial problem but able to to go through and settle it, thinking that such situation will make as closer but i was wrong, indeed at 1st we were closer, last nite, everything change after a family dinner, i dont know what happened or did i do something wrong that make him change his mind of being together with me.. I have been hurt alots of time in a relationship but i never in life that cry so badly in front of a guy that i loved so much, i felt so hurt that i cnt stop myself from crying, i realised that i have deeply fallen for him and how he feels and what he does affect my emotions too, i never felt so hurt when it come to breaking off, but last nite after what he told me i couldnt believed my ears, i always believed that loving someone does required any reason for and willing to sacarfice anything for that person, but whnever i do that to a new relationship, ultimately i always end up the one being hurt the most...sometime i think about it, do i always have to be the one that is giving everything but dont recevied any rewards back or even get loved by that person...i knw sometime i do stupid things or say something stupid, i know what type of approached to use when i show i am mature some guys feels that they dun like such behaviour, seriously i dont knw what approached to use on guys should i act mature or shouldnt i, what type of gals that a guys really want in a gal, a mature one or not too mature, which is which, i dont know, i feel very confused and pressure. I like that guy alot but what should i do, he say i am immature, in what way, he never say, that make me even more sad and puzzled, why are guys such a complex animals, I am trying hard to commodate with him but he dont even one to give me a chance. I dont know if i still dare to enter into any other relationship after this,cos i really dont know how to please a guy, i dont know how i should behaviour in front of them..who cn teach me i dont want to repeat the same mistake again....Haiz