Thursday, September 17, 2009
Why Is It Life Is So Unfair To Me
The saddest thing in life is not knowing that people around you dont support you or encourage you..The scariest and saddest news to revealed is when you found out that you dont even belong to this world..It was through a session that i found out this unbelieved news from the God of Hell and Jade yesterday, i dont know if it was a rite move that i went to seek guidance from this God, after so many things is done yet i am still feel that things are still nt exactly at the rite track, when i seek help from ytd, the moment he look at me, He keep shaking his head and told me, i should not be born into this world, or i shld not be even born, and since i was born life will be a tough and difficult jounery for me from the start till my old age, when i ask what can i do to make it better so that i dont find it so difficult and tough, He ask if i ever dedicated myself to any people or God, and base on my memory from what i heard from my parents before age 15 i was once the child of God Of Mercy, but once after the age of 15 i will be free from the careof Her, so i went into christianity, to my horror, i have made the biggest and worst mistake in my life, from the time i become sensible i never ever offended anyone in my life but yet i have offend someone we should never offend and that is GOD, that is the worst scariest mistake that i ever commited, the reason why i am so shock and affected is because due to my ignorant i went into christainity and i was being punish cos of my parents who did not do a proper job and ended up i have to suffer all this pain and toils, why are they so careless, when i confronted them this morning, to ask the final time, did they did a proper and clean job when i switch to christianity, they still insist saying yes, that make me very very upset and angry, when i explain to them they put the blamed on me saying cos at that time i refused to listen and insist of going into christianity so they leave me aside, when i reflected on this issue i dont find yself at fault cos in the 1st place i did ask them if i am really abl eto choose my religion and before i decide to baptise i even ask them again if they have settle everything for me properly and again the answer is YES, but what happened now, if they have done a proper job will i suffer all this, i dont know if i should put who on the blame, the other that hurt me even more when the God of Hell and Jade told me that my relationship with my family is not close cos my parents practices favouriteism in the family,the love and dote a lot on my brother but is was the greatest mistake cos my brother will turn into someone who is WANG EN FU YI person, and cos of what my brother action it disappointed my parents whatever i do wont make any difference even if i am filial to them, i spare thoughts on them but they would never appreciate, when i heard this my heart sank and i was utterly lost of words cos what the GOD told me was exactly how i have been feeling throughtout the years, when i tell my mother this morning, she denied it and emphasis that she dont do so, but if she dont why should God tell me this, when she heard the news she feels that i am blaming her and she find that she have done alot and yet i still find it not enough, i really dont understand why that when i convey the massage that God given me to them they are still at the denial of it....why they dont want to accept and admit it...Cos of their negligence, i am being severely punished by Goddness Of Mercy cos of my wrong move without any head or tails information, i have violated both God and have to suffer all this, why do i have such a parents that can be so careless about ritual and the attitude towards God, i can imagine that, cos of one word I dont know how and what to do jus follow what people say, i got to carry this sufferring, if in the beginning i am given a detail information things could be save and better...God had even give them hints through me but yet they are still not taking action until last year when thing went to the worst. Why life is so unfair to me even though i know i shouldnt come to this world...Afterall, the greates mistake i ever committed in my whole life is that i have offended someone that I always respect so much and needless to say that is GOD the Authority who foresee the people on earth...How could i have committed such unforgiveable mistake and how can i just walk out from Goddness Of Mercy without her permission and why my parents are so careless of all these.... WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY?
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I know that sometimes, you would feel really bad, and that parents would never understand and know what we really wanted. It is not wrong to seek help, but let me tell you, you must seek the right help. Even though i am only twelve, which people think that i am not really that mature and experienced to have gone through many life experiences(and i admit that), but the only thing that i am sure of is that, the Buddha, Goddess of Mercy, they would never hold a grudge against anyone. So long as you are sincere and sorry for the misdeeds, She will not blame you. Life have their ups and downs. Sometimes the blow may be too big for you to take. Maybe it is true that your life turns out to be like that, but if it happens to me, i would say "SO WHAT?" I will not give up, i will not let it get in my way. Why must i change my life and make myself unhappy just because of that? I am sure i can change it. There is such happenings. When it seems the worst time of your life, the moment you step up and overcome it, everything will be fine. Mamy people have their own bad times, mine is not here yet, but i know it will come. That is life, we cannot do anything about it. So my dear cousin, please do not think about these things, your parents may be unfair, actually all of us think that our parents are, however, have you ever thought why sometimes they would lie to you? Let me tell you the answer, they love you and they dont want you to get hurt. Even though they also might be biased, but they still love you, all i know is that, I cannot deny the fact that even my mum nag at me all day long, i know she still love me... Anyway, let me ask you a very simple question, who is the person who introduced you to that person who can communicate with God and tell about you?
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