Thoughts that Went Through My Mind During My Stay At Hospital

Hmm..........it had been a long time since i last post on the blog. On 4 November 08, i was hospitalised again. Sighed! this time beside the usual symptoms that i had been experiencing for the past 1o months, now it also accompany with the pain of my lower back . All these symptoms, not only making me sick and tired each day, it also causes much of frustration and irritation. It also affected my work performance, not only that i realised that my energy and concentration level had drop a lot and i have difficulties in focusing on my work. I hated all these and it is driving me crazy. Many times, i started to question God, why do i have to go through so many obstacle in my life, one incident after another. When will this come to end i'm pretty exhausted and tired of going through all these torture. God if it is really your plan that i have to go through all these, i sincerely pray that you can give me the equal strength to overcome whatever thing that i have to face now. I have come to an extend where i have lost the fighting spirit. I thought of giving up many times, but i choose to live on because i know i have a group of friends, as well as my family memebers and teachers who care and love me so i dont want to disappoint them.God if this is really your will that i have to go, i will follow and obey, because only from you alone i can find assurance amd peace in my mind. God i really need uyou by my side.