Hospitalisation and Feeling of Frustration

Recently i had readmitted to hospital again cos of high fever. I'm getting more and more frustrated and impatient as i wait for the blood test result to come out. I do not know what is the cause as most of the result is negative expect that the white blood cells is high. The stay in hospital made me feel like a geniue pig as i have to undergo lots of blood tests scan etc. It's really gets on my nerves not only physical pain and feeling mentally exhausted and depressed. I just do not know what had went wrong in my body as i feeling extremely tired and weak. How long will this last is the question i had been asking myself since the day i'm sick. I'm losing the faith to fight on with the sickness. I feel like giving up my whole life i dont feel like living anymore. I am very frustrated. I feeling like a bird being catched and keep in the cage. I can't breath.